This took my breath away when i realized what it was.
Getting excited for 221bcon plus Cara’s (areyoutryingtodeduceme) 221tea party A:LKDJFDSF
Feel free to come and bother me, seriously! I’ve never been to one of these before so I’ll probably look like a lost puppy or something :B
I’ll also have postcards ($3/piece) and hugs (free) :DDD
* sobs * I wish I could be there!!
*This is NSFW! Put some headphones on to avoid embarrassment*
So this is the little treat I have been talking about! :D Think of it as, ‘Audio Sherlock Porn.’
I tried my best to get rid of the background noise, and add a little story to it as well :D I promise you that I ONLY used audio from the TV series, no extra audio has been added, what so ever!
And here is the download link that people have been asking for: http://www.mediafire.com/?8saj29bv4qwb5ud
Sherlock & Jawn Get It On!
- In 221B
“I looked you up on the internet last night. Found your website.”
“What did you think? Any good?”
“What to see some more?”
“Oh god yes.”
*Undoes pants. John starts inserting..his.. into.. Sherlock.*
“You doing it?
“You done it?”
“Yeah, hang on!”
*Sherlock and John get at it!*
“yes….careful!……….Oh, John”…….”YES!”…..”OH GOD!!”……………
*They finish up.*
“Me, yeah, fine..I’m fine..fine….
That, ah…thing, that you, ah.. that you did with, um… that was, umm….. good.
But I was hoping you’d go deeper.”
oh, that last line
OMG I CAN’T.
I seriously can’t!!! —-
…. Jesus. Listening over and over…
I would like to apologize to my followers for reblogging this.
Stop right there
I literally threw away my headphones when I heard the beginning.
this is not and never will be okay
on a scale from one to listening to this whole audio post how much do you hate yourself
Forcing myself to listen and bursting into tears..im sorry all my followerssss /dies especially the ending otl the scream
So like a third of the people I was following had been deactivated/abandoned/inactive for months, I now need moar blogs to follow~
Reblog if you post any of the following~
- Code Geass
- Harry Potter
- “Slytherin Pride”
- Doctor Who
- Graphic Design
I’ll be checking out all blogs that reblog this and following like mad :)
(I will check likes too, but I’d appreciate it more if you would be willing to signal boost for me)
there’s no remedy for memory
DE - This picture is too angsty to ignore… I have to write a sad ficlet.
- - - - -
It was the only piece of him he had left.
He’d cherished it, unconditionally prizing it above nearly all of his other possessions. He kept it close, even wearing it on a few occasions in the winter; tucked beneath the safety of his coat, resting against his chest. Over his heart. If those that had known the pair - Mrs. Hudson, Lestrade, or Mycroft - caught sight of the familiar blue fabric peeking out from beneath the front of John’s coat – they didn’t speak on it.
He remembered dog-sitting for Harry one day. Few months ago, now. He’d come up from doing laundry to find her ill-mannered pet shaking and gnawing on Sherlock’s scarf like it was a toy. John had nearly flown off the handle, and had struggled (as if his life depended on it) to get the scarf free from the dog’s mouth. When Harry picked up her stupid mutt, he’d given her an earful about it. He could still hear her words fluttering about in the back of his head…
“It’s just a scarf, John…”
She’s said it with such disdain; as if he were pathetic for treasuring it so. John had spent the rest of the evening hand washing the scarf to remove the dog’s saliva and hair, and then sewed up a couple small canine-shaped holes that had resulted from the tug of war. John held it close afterward. He’d pressed the fabric up against his nose and lips and inhaled for a few minutes. But Sherlock’s scent had long since faded away. Only in certain spots could John detect a hint of his companion…
He’d ended up crying again.
Six months should have been enough time to start getting over Sherlock Holmes. But for John, the wound still felt as fresh as it did the day his friend jumped.
The day he lost him.
“Well, it’s a bit different from my day…”
He would stare at the beam more and more with each passing day. A simple piece of wood, part of the structure of their flat; right at the junction between the kitchen and the sitting room. He could recall Sherlock hanging a dummy from it by a noose. It should be strong enough to support his weight. He’d lost quite a bit.
“Mike can I borrow your phone? There’s no signal on mine.”
John stood up from the couch and made his way into the kitchen to retrieve the step stool. The scarf was draped around his neck.
“Ah… here. Use mine.”
He set the stood down beneath the support beam he’d been eyeing for the past three weeks. This was not an idle or snap decision. Suicide never really was, despite what people might say. There was a great deal of debate, of internal suffering; of pure endurance. Trying to live day to day, trying to present yourself to everyone as just another hard-working citizen. As someone with a balanced life. As someone who could cope. As someone who didn’t feel like crawling right out of his skin every five minutes with the realization, and constant reminder, that he would never be as happy as he’d been when Sherlock Holmes was alive.
“Oh. Thank you.”
But he wasn’t coming back. And after months of trying to get on with his life… John was simply exhausted. He didn’t- no, couldn’t do this anymore. He stood on the stool, just barely able to loop the scarf around the beam, and tie it into a secure knot. He tugged and pulled on it as hard as he could. John even held onto it and hung in the air for a moment; lifting his body weight off the step stool so he could be sure it would support him.
“This is an old friend of mine. John Watson.”
His fingers trembled as he tied the other end of the scarf off into his ‘noose’.
He was so bloody tired. He couldn’t remember the last time he’d slept through the night. Each dream always ended the same; regardless of setting, regardless of mood, regardless of those involved… he would always see Sherlock jump. It would replay, over and over in his head like a skipping record – rendering John incapable of getting a full night’s sleep.
What was even worse was when it had started happening in the day, two months ago. A quick flash behind his eyes; there was Sherlock, lying motionless on the pavement; blood stark in it’s contrast against his pale skin and icy blue eyes. Dark hair matted and wet…
John would always gasp, and jump back as if the image were real… and he would shake his head, and attempt to continue on with the interrupted activity. Blinking to erase his waking nightmare.
“Afghanistan or Iraq?”
The question. The question… that had initially sparked his obsessive infatuation with all that Sherlock Holmes was. He’d had John’s number from the moment they met. John was entranced, and didn’t see a ‘freak’, but a misunderstood genius. A great man. And the best friend he’d ever had.
He was trembling now, but it didn’t seem to matter much. He was on the stool, the makeshift scarf-noose was in place and around his neck, and the flat was quiet. How he hated the quiet.
John closed his eyes and tried to ignore how itchy his face felt from the tears that had streamed down - that he hadn’t even bothered to wipe away. With his head low and his shoulders slumped forward in defeat… John took one final breath, and leaned forward, and then back on the stool – so it would lurch out from under him.
But just as the stool tumbled forward, he heard the familiar chirp of his mobile. A new message.
John’s eyes snapped open, surprised at the sound, just as his feet lost their support.
He began to suffocate.
Eventually… he stopped struggling.
Eventually… his body stopped swaying back and forth.
 New Message, Unread
August 15th 2013, 2:21am
I’m home. SH
It looks like he is getting up the nerve to ask him out.
“… could you bring him back?” John inquires quietly, looking over to him with an expression that is not at all expectant. It’s a question that almost seems rhetorical, but despite everything he still finds himself waiting upon an answer; he’d be willing to believe anything now.
The words hang in the air, suspended in the silence as Castiel appears to be contemplating the request. After a moment he finally settles on a reply.
“I’m sorry, John,” he says, his eyes flickering over slight fall in the other mans expression. John shows no surprise, just the corner of his mouth twitching to a slight, humourless smile.
“No, I didn’t think so.”
Castiel looks away, allowing a few more seconds to pass before softly adding,
“It’s impossible; you can’t bring back someone who was never gone.”